Welcome back everyone, sorry I haven't been posting, like I said, I'm not good at keeping a blog updated (clearly) but I feel that you guys are really out of the loop now, so I feel compelled to write to you.
The past week, and continuing into this week have been really rough for me, with everything that has happened and everything. This could be a long entry, but since you love reading this blog I'm sure you'll bear with me. ;)
Three Fridays ago, September 27th, I had my Homecoming. Is all it was is a football game, no dance, but still. Dawn, A'Lory, my friends Kaylee and Jessica and myself all went to the game and it was a blast! I loved hanging out with my best friends, but that week they had put grandpa on morphine. I knew that he could depart this earth any day that week. I knew I should have stayed home but Yvonne and John Jay insisted I got to the game with Dawn and A'lory. So I went, with reassurance from Yvonne that if anything happened to Grandpa that she would text me the moment it happened. Well, after third quarter ended, we were still winning. I was going to stay for the rest of the game, but something didn't feel right. I went home shortly after third quarter started. After I dropped A'Lory off at her house, I drove home. As I walked into the door, I noticed everyone crying in Grandpa's room crying, and I knew. My thought was confirmed by John Jay. Grandpa O had passed away peacefully at about 10:20 that night. I can only consider it a blessing that I had left when I did.
The next day, Jenna, John Jay, our neighbors Victor and Zonia all went to the Texas State Fair. We were going to watch a football game at the Cotton Bowl, but it started raining and we didn't even watch a full quarter. We walked around the fair, and it did Jenna a lot of good. She wasn't so sad about her grandfather after that. Still sad, but not as sad. The same was true for myself.
Last Friday, October Fourth, I had a college tour at University of Texas at Arlington, and I really enjoyed the tour! I didn't have to go to school, because the school provides us with two school excused absences for college visitation purposes.
The following Sunday we left for San Antonio, where Grandpa's Service was to be held. That night was one of the longest, but best nights I had. Everyone was antsy from traveling all day in a car, myself included. Then we stayed in a Condo for the rest of the night. It was a long night. I couldn't fall asleep until midnight, and it didn't help that a certain someone made me totally giddy right before I went to bed. I'm sure he knows who he is, and exactly what it is he said that made me feel that way. Not only that, but I couldn't keep my high of happiness to myself, I had to text my best friend about everything that had happened regarding my change in happiness levels, and that occupied me for another hour. Needless to say, I woke up at four in the morning because I needed to pee and couldn't fall back asleep after that. Grandpa's service was the next morning (so on Monday) and was beautiful, and I couldn't think of a better way to honor him. He had a military service because he was in the Air Force, and so he got the 21 gun salute and everything. It was just simply the most beautiful thing I've seen in a while, and honored him perfectly.
We left from San Antonio and headed towards home at about 7 o' clock at night. I was exhausted, and we didn't actually end up getting home until about midnight. I didn't fall asleep in the car at all, and so school Tuesday wasn't even a possibility. I'm glad I stayed home to catch up on sleep, because I needed the extra sleep, especially since I only got four hours of sleep the night before.
Then this Friday, the eleventh, I went and toured University of North Texas, and going into the school, I honestly thought that it would be the school for me! But as the tour continued on, I realized that it really wasn't. Neither Yvonne nor myself can put our fingers on just what it was that was so different. I'm really glad I toured, because going into the school, I thought that I was certain that I was going to go to UNT. But now I know I'm not, and so I'm pretty dead set on going to UTA.
But then I hit a road bump. Okay, more like a road block. I found out that I don't qualify for in state tuition until my mom in Utah stops claiming me on her taxes. And even if she does that this year, I still won't qualify until Spring of 2015. Even with me living here with Yvonne, she isn't my parent (in the eyes of the colleges). What that means is that I'm going to be a semester behind all my friends. I also have to get a job. Which I'm okay with, but I'm seriously so bummed out. I'm worried that all my friends are going to forget about me, or have their own clicks and that I'm going to be stuck being the new girl all over again. And while I didn't mind the chance to have a clean slate, I definitely don't want to have to do the whole new to the school thing that often.
Patrick and I also got into a bit of a, well, I don't even know what to call it. It wasn't a fight, or an argument, but just more of him pushing my buttons. We talked it out, and he apologized, and due to the whole confidentiality thing, I'm not going to discuss what happened. If you really want to know why I was so peeved, you can come find me in person, or call me. Anyways, we talked about it, he apologized, and I accepted his apology. That day was a really bad day for me as was. I had forgot a major project at home, got gum on my boot, and then Patrick said something that didn't sit well with me. But like I said, he apologized, I accepted his apology, and moved on.
I guess that all I'm really getting at is that I'm stressing out. I really need to start working out or running or doing something, and hopefully that will help me out a bit. Dawn and I talked about all this stuff that happened earlier today, and I'm so grateful to have a girl friend that can relate to me, and talk to me and just listen to me. Because sometimes, that's the best thing to have, someone that will just listen to you. I'm also grateful to have loving parents (times two) and so many other friends that support me. I know that I have many friends who have my back and will always be there for me. Thanks Madison, Tylee, and Jake for always being there for me, even when I'm 2500 miles away.
Anyways, I'll talk to you peeps later. Sorry this is such a long entry, I hope you enjoyed it!
~Lyssa
